Sophie Cook

Not today : How I chose life

Hold On Pain Ends

Sophie Cook’s ‘Not Today: How I Chose Life’ reimagined for a younger audience – Summer 2019

“I know that one day I’ll kill myself, because I don’t know how to stop feeling this way but it won’t be today.
In the meantime I’m going to do the best I can to enjoy every single day and then on the day that I die, in many, many years time, I’ll look back and realise that I didn’t get around to doing it.”

“With this simple revelation I found a way to live. It may not have slain my demons completely but it significantly reduced their power to hurt me.”

Having spent a lifetime hating herself and struggling with post traumatic stress, her gender identity, self harm and suicide, RAF veteran and former motorbike racer, newspaper editor, Premier League football and rock photographer, Sophie Cook was at breaking point when she transitioned from male to female in 2015.

After the success of her inspirational book ‘Not Today: How I Chose Life’ Sophie was approached by a number of parents and education professionals who wanted it to be available in a format that could help a younger audience.

The book told the story of how she conquered her demons to come out as transgender in the Premier League, run for Parliament and learn to love herself. The story is the same, the lessons about self love and standing against injustice are the same, but Sophie’s sometimes brutally honest representations about living with mental health issues have been rewritten for a younger audience.

’Hold On Pain Ends’ weaves Sophie’s personal journey from despair to redemption together with those of young people facing similar issues in the 21st century and acts as a self help book for anyone struggling with their mental health and identity, as Sophie says: “It’s the book that I wish I’d been able to read as a teenager”.

Support the crowdfunder for ‘Hold On Pain Ends’ and help us to bring Sophie’s message of hope to a whole new audience.

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My everlasting thanks - £5
If you want to help us with this project but aren't ready to order the book now then you will have my everlasting thanks, plus a £5 discount if you decide to buy a copy of the book at a later date, thank you.





Copy of the eBook - £8
eBook of 'Hold On Pain Ends' by Sophie Cook





Paperback - £10
Paperback of 'Hold On Pain Ends' by Sophie Cook





Signed Paperback - £15
Signed Paperback of 'Hold On Pain Ends' by Sophie Cook





Signed & Dedicated Paperback - £20
Signed Paperback of 'Hold On Pain Ends' by Sophie Cook complete with personal dedication





Supporter name in front of book - £50
As a supporter you will receive a signed copy of the paperback with a personal dedication and your name printed in the front of the book.





Patron name in front of book - £100
As a patron you will receive two signed copy of the paperback with a personal dedication and your name printed in the front of the book.





Super Patron in front of book - £200
As a Super Patron you will receive four signed copies of the paperback with a personal dedication and your name printed in the front of the book





The event - £500
As an Event Patron you will receive ten signed copies of the paperback with a personal dedication and your name printed in the front of the book plus a 30 minute keynote speech anywhere within the UK.






Order Sophie’s first book ‘Not Today: How I Chose Life’

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Thank you so much for your time and your support.

Sophie x